How do I describe this? Err… I don’t know.. Just let’s say, I wrote this from my heart and No! Its not a letter but I don’t know any other title that will fit.
Why I posted this up here and didn’t send it to you personally, its Emmanuel Noel’s (@fricativa) fault, yes Gjingy’s fault.
But sincerely, I hope you like it.
Well, its almost three years now and what I say…
Three years of Bliss.
Three years of Life.
Three years of Destiny.
I still would never forget how it started.
It was the evening of that Saturday.
Plato was the centre of focus and his allegory of the cave was his magic wand.
Lanre and Kola.
Then, agents of mischief; now I can only smile and consider them our angels.
A rumour we were and a rumour we became but a rumour are we not anymore for in you I have found destiny and I know you feel the same.
You bruised my heart but I didn’t bulge.
I paid Cupid and yet, you were adamant.
But the saying, ‘What God has joined together, Let no man put asunder’ stood its ground and come February 11, you said Yes. You don’t know how happy I am now just thinking about that day
I’m wondering why I’m doing this now and I have no single clue. PHCN is at their best, the Neigbourhood is scattered along the shores of beaches and cities you only see in pictures in blissful sleep and my eyes hurt from the glare of my phone because everywhere is dark but No, I’ll continue tapping this keypads like if it is my last duty on earth but then, if this is the my last moment, this would be the second thing I would want to be doing.
First on the list? Holding you in my arms of course!
It took me eternity to know I had found a Gem in you. I lost you countless times in my bid to find greener pastures. More painful is it that the green on you is one even the lilies Jesus talked about would envy and I had to break your heart to know that.
I’ve lived with you in my life and I’ve lived without you and still the margin between both ends dazzle me. Without you, I’m but a weakling. With you, I’m a god! And No, I’m not flattering you.
You asked me once if I would die to save you and I said ‘No’… Well darling, I lied. I would die and die and die again to save you because I know my motives might be selfish but I don’t think I can survive if you’re not with me. You complete me and you make me a better person. With you; I’m more confident, more driven, a whole lot better at stuff and most importantly, a better friend of God.
True, I’ve broken your heart a few times.
Yes, I’ve been the world’s best jerk many times but that has never stopped you from loving me. I’ve called you names, walked out on you, ignored you and even made you bitter and jealous but you’ve not once stopped to retaliate or hurt me. When folks say I don’t deserve you, they are not lying. I don’t deserve you one bit. In fact, no one deserves you but you said Yes and I am eternally grateful.
It pains me to know that I’m dozing off as I write this because you deserve so much more. It hurts me to know that I’m getting short of words because you deserve much more but the best I can do, I promise I’ll do.
I promise to adore you as much as I can
I promise to treat you better than no human can.
I promise to hug you tighter than its humanly possible.
And I promise to love you with every fibre, every bone, every ounce of blood and every part of my life.
I promise to love you for the rest of my life and even eternity if God bids me.
I love you Mae.
I forever will.