Deep within darkness I fell
Scraping at the very surface of what remained of my soul
As the light in my eyes faded in shadows
I descend into depths of grey and nothingness
A world of no sides nor tangibles
The little light left gasping within travels to and fro
As I watch colours fade as I fall beneath the surface, into unknown depths
I was helpless
Sounds won’t be made in this world
For there was no air yet I wasn’t choking
Just nothingness
And I was encased within it
And before my fall into despair, the little hope left in me prayed to be saved and delivered
For what plagued me I had no strength to overcome.
Slowly consciousness faded
And my mind seemed to fall into a deep sleep,
Soon my thoughts faded into whispers and I
You remember as I do
The days you encompassed me
Engulfed my very being as I fell deep beneath the surface into your engulfing grey scheme
You took me and reminded me of my sorrows
Washed me over until I felt alone and neglected
Within your world were no colours but grey
No feelings but emptiness
No will but helplessness
Your shades taking away the light in my eyes
As I threw so gallantly fake smiles at my fellow men
And alone by you, with myself alone with you
You seized me till I wept, wept silly
You were my companion in those times
When no one watched
When no one was around
I would find my corner and drown myself in you
Soon I had Self-pity; a friend of yours pay me homage
And by and by you were the only feeling I could define
The only feeling I could remember
Soon I was addicted to the way you made me feel
And it was all I wanted to feel, even when you had nothing on me
Though having you around condemned me to Depression; your other friend
That once a while my heart would ache within me
Still I cultured you into my mind’s view of normalcy
And whatever else was a once a while treat
And if I ever was asked “are you fine”,
Me replying yes was my truth and I truly with you been there was fine
I wouldn’t lie; I can say I have missed you
But what we had is over
I was with you for so long that I could manage you, bend you and thrive within you
but been without you has had me live
And even now writing about you has me feeling only you
I do remember you
I loved you
I felt safe in your cozy grey
I remember when with you my distaste of happiness
Its bright colours that seemed to light up the environs
But now I have someone even better within me
Someone like the sun itself.
Hmph, thank you for been there
Because coming out of you though then I was an unwilling captive, made me stronger
I won’t forget you because I know you loved me as I loved you
Though it wasn’t good love
In case you wonder about me, I am in a blessed place
A place I could not even perceive when with you
Joy brought me here, the one I said is even better than Happiness
Yes, the same fellow you dreaded
Thank you Greysoul
The name I later came to give the union of you and me
And concerning tomorrow by the grace of God, I will work to never been with you
* * * * *
I behold light, break forth from the surface to reach me beneath
As it breaks the shackles off me, causing me free
I realize now that I slept all along
Though within that sleep I knew not that I slept
So refreshing it is, that my soul fumbles in words and expressions
Like wings have been given me to fly
I am glad, I am happy, I am joyful…
“For there was no air yet I wasn’t choking” – and that line reminded me of John legend. lol
Nice one boss
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Awesome post yeah. How about Solomon Grundy?
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